I lick the salt from my wounds

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 18:49:19 GMT

Sagittarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

Your playful nature brings out the happy inner-child in dates

You're willing to take risks in love... and reap the rewards

You've got a killer sense of humor that gets talking with any hottie you meet

Your negative traits:

Sometimes your sarcasm comes off as biting and abrasive

You can be brutally honest, tactless, and truthful even when it hurts

You're such a free spirit that you find it hard to commit to one person

Your ideal partner:

Someone high energy who will pick up and out with you whenever

Is creative and fun - thinking of new adventures for the two of you

Is bold... and not afraid to tell you "I love you" early on

Your dating style:

Unpredictable. You never know how the night is going to end up.

Your seduction style:

Daring. You're always pushing to try something new in the bedroom.

Full of imagination. You've always got a new fantasy you're dying to try.

Spritually driven. Sex for you can be an other-worldy act.

Tips for the future:

Realize that while freedom is great - sometimes a stable relationship is better.

It's not all about you. Focus on your parnter's needs every once and a while.

Make up your mind about your parnter, and stick to it. Your fickle will ruin things otherwise.

Best place to meet someone online:

American Singles - tons of flirting and fun to suite your inner extrovert

Best color to attract mate: Purple

Best day for a date: Thursday

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Sat, 22 May 2004 15:11:54 GMT

Which Bettie Are You? by antisocialoser
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Wed, 19 May 2004 00:54:50 GMT

man am i mad. i missed the simpsons with john waters on it AGAIN. stupid sleep.

She wakes up in the morning; the sun is shining in her face
She turns her head around; she shares the blanket on which the love embraced
She looks out of the window; it's a lovely day outside
She tells herself that things are fine, he pulls the sheets to cover his eyes
The essence of the fresh air, that garden held the love affair
Thinking back their minds are torn in muddle and confusion
So far away another sits, who tries to make the best of it
He don't know quite what's hit him, it's another love illusion
He gazes in his empty room eyes fixed upon her picture
The loneliness, dejectedness, God how the fuck he's missed her
His eyes turn turn to the window, the military roars by
He wonders how much hatred could evolve out of the sky
What God had done for peace on earth, what man destroyed from day of birth
They are concerned with feelings; they're just ashamed to cry
And one mans plan to push the button makes other sacrifice
The serenade is dead and now the only question's why?
Why when we are young, we're told it's right to love
Told it's human nature and that comes from God above
As time moves on we realise that we all look from the pit
While a plan hangs above us, to keep us in the shit
Because the minute we are born, we're told what's right and wrong
Raised with certain morals, never mentioned in their songs
As we grow up, we find out that the paths been neatly set
In a world of such destruction, we only can regret
Regret that is the word of it, as we look for our way out of it
Why can't they understand we don't want any part of it?
The pain they create everyday, that just ain't gonna go away
We've got to stick together, but still you're asking why?
The system stands strong, as our movement starts to crumble
The pressure we once held, has just turned into a rumble
They've got us where they want us, and you all just accept that
Well don't you think its time; we started to hit back
They are the enemy; they want a rope around your neck
And if they will go that far, then what the fuck is next?
Forget the revolution, we've heard it all before
Heard all of the promises of nineteen-eighty-four
Its an impossible task, "oh yes", it stands before us all
Well maybe you'll believe it when your back's against the wall

LOOK NOW

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 15:24:59 GMT

hahahhaha

http://www.rathergood.com/moon_song/

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 20:14:26 GMT

Thank You, Dr. Hoess

These plastic faces
stark blank
thoughts bouncing from
one eyeball to the other
looking out to see in.
show me show me show me—
I am the universal You.
doctors molding faces, bodies
molding underneath the
plastic souls molding underneath.
-break it-
cut and paste the world
together, paint by number,
Aryan stencils and Adolph dreams
-exterminate exterminate-
the broken ones,
broken hearts burned up in
the oven
shovel them in,
grey souls rise
to the sky.

on another note: previously, starbucks could have gotten raped. but, since there's one in my school bookstore, i decided to submit to evil and get a spiced chai tea. oh. my. god. it was sex in a cup. i now secretly drive there in black and dart through the line unseen.

roller skating

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 18:56:36 GMT

the air was glittering
round and round
picasso faces
swirling down a drain
like there was something
down there other than
death.
she giggled and grabbed his
hand tighter.
a joke, she thought.
death has to be a joke
"Surprise!"
they'd shout with moaney-groaney
voices through absent black
teeth and no tongues;
moldy muscle shards,
zombie
eyes.
Our bodies die but
our souls live on
forever, right?
she kissed his flesh,
her
ba-boom ba-boom
mixing with his
lub-dub lub-dub
trying to cheat
The End

funniest. thing. ever.

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 04:13:34 GMT

today = me + Bobby Trendy. yeah. i'll bask in your jealousy.

real update when i get home.

quiz.

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 21:07:43 GMT

The Sudden Departure
Random Brutal Love Master (RBLMf)

Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call.

You are The Sudden Departure.

You've been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have
ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you're a really fantastic
girl who doesn't really know what she wants, and you've broken a few
hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the feeling
of falling in love, but once you're there, either boredom or the old
"grass is greener" syndrome sets in. The mind wanders, and with it goes
the flesh. And then the toiletries.

Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer

We know you're not the classic "love 'em and leave 'em" type, at
least not in a purely sexual sense. You have too many serious bonding
tendencies for that. But even though you're theoretically looking to
settle down, you don't settle long on one person. "Serial monogamist"
is probably something you hear a lot. "Emotionally loose" is another way
to put it. To the poor guys eating your dust and sniffing your panties,
it doesn't really make much difference. Of course, it's not really your
fault that people get hurt. You have every right to move on when you choose.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Backrubber, The Gentleman

CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail, someone just like you

Your exact opposite: The Intern

http://devel.okcupid.com/personality?type=RBLM&g=2&o=1

Thu, 04 Dec 2003 19:54:23 GMT

a wormless chick
waiting for guts
and blood;
something real
to taste
even if it is
innards-
it fills the
hungry void.

Tue, 25 Nov 2003 00:35:27 GMT

fuck you for making me smear my makeup

Thu, 13 Nov 2003 21:15:57 GMT

YOU ARE ETHER!

Well, well... you are the mysterious Fifth Element!
The Fifth Element, Ether, is used or conjured
in many ancient religions or magics, but is not
something found on this plane. Those that have
been able to make the ascension to the Ether
are truly evolved people, possessed with
heightened senses of intelligence, perception,
and empathy that others simply don't have.
Everyday possessions aren't of much interest -
you are beyond that. You tend to gravitate to
open spaces, changing environments, and won't
saddle yourself with one style or decision.
Indeed, just one type of career isn't of
interest to you either, as your need to
constantly continue evolving and growing won't
allow you to settle down. Sadly, this need may
also impact your social life as well. You tend
to have few friends as not many people
understand you, and fewer relationships because
you simply outgrow them.

Don't be discouraged by this, though. You are truly
one of the unique, for very few people have
been able to achieve this type of
enlightenment. Be proud and use your knowledge
and experiences to teach and help others as
much as you can.

Which of the 5 Prime Elements are you?
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Mon, 15 Sep 2003 03:33:39 GMT

my knees are still boneless
after hitting the ground that day

i was in a carousel
spinning like it had
somewhere to go
it was nervously enjoyable
with shifty eyes
and half-cocked grins.
suddenly all the
old, bulbous lights
flickered out.
the spinning got faster
and i really wanted to
escape into a mother's
loving arms
but my horse got spooked
and bucked me off.
my knees hit the
seedy carousel floor
and my brain turned static.
chaos began and ended
in a matter of thoughts.
all i could feel
was my wet face
in rubble.

Thu, 04 Sep 2003 03:33:57 GMT

a photograph, a memoir,
sitting in the secrets
of my brain.
i blow the dust off
to reveal an empty frame

he kissed my cheek
and said
"nothing will ever be the same."
i looked into the light
and was pushed out again

its hand on my hip-
a shadow of fate,
turns static.
illusion of two
rips iron stitches

pick The Scab
to make it bleed again.

Sun, 24 Aug 2003 10:16:37 GMT

lost

sometimes,
out of the corner of my eye,
i'll see his shape.
he's walking into
the shadows,
the same stride he used
walking away from me.
hope gone stale
innocence long expired,
and into the tangles of dark
he'll never escape.
my head
snaps around,
blink,
he disappears
fading into the black-
becoming it.
i'll live my life
seeing him
out of the corner
of my eye.

Sun, 17 Aug 2003 06:28:10 GMT

You are an Amethyst. You are quiet and tend to be
shy. You don't like attention to be pointed
towards you, yet your beauty and uniqueness
draw people to you.

What Jewel Are You?
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sex sex sex

Fri, 01 Aug 2003 05:42:35 GMT

Your Sex Sign is Aries!

You're fiery, independent, and the best anyone's ever had.

You're so hot that you drive everyone wild with sexual frustration.

You're a total star when you're on top, but you also need to be impressed in bed.

Aries, you are headstrong, spolied, fiery in temperment, and fiercely independent.

You always want to be the best anyone's ever had, and you'll spend all night convincing your lover that you are.

Don't worry - you usually are the best anyone has ever had.

When you get down, you don't leave out anything.

Sexually, you're a leader and very sure of yourself.

One of your favorite positions is being on top, where you can move freely - while letting your lover observe you orgasm.

Sex with you is always exciting.

You start with teasing, playful seduction - that always drives your lovers wild with frustration.

You always deliver though!

You love being over powered, and you respond to a strong sexual appetite with equal fervor.

The confident lover who can give you breathtaking, powerful sex will have you eating out of his or her hand.

What's *Your* Sex Sign?

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hmm...pretty dead on. strange. i don't feel well. gonna lay down for a bit.

Fri, 13 Jun 2003 07:02:18 GMT

release

to all that could have been
i bid you farewell
what if..
i wonder what..
maybe..
exit stage left
you’re no longer
needed here
the show ran its course
your acting expired
the encore was heartfucking
but you’ll never look
into those eyes again
and be met
with the same soul
he’s rotting
but you’re not to blame
beauty turned to dust
blowing away with the
wind
the pieces scattering
never to reunite
forever misshapen
mortality gained
through the loss of perfection
he’ll never make it back
up to the tower
sickening humanity
chosen
over crystal-clear death
so what
so what
to broken fairy tales
i bid farewell
no sadness, no regret
only clarity to all
that could have been.

something abstract took me back to a place i used to be, but i never really validated the feelings at the time. now they're real.
must....sleeeeeeep...

Fri, 13 Jun 2003 03:00:57 GMT

ART/TEMPERANCE
"the creator, the alchemist"
You achieve balance and integration through the
creative process or by working with the hands;
you have a deep love for your creative
expression which is inspired by your great
perception and emotional insights. You love
truth and beauty for their own sakes. You have
the ability to balance and blend masculine and
feminine, yin and yang, reception and
assertion. Remember that the highest art form
is that of artful relationships.

***which major arcana of the thoth tarot deck are you? short; with pictures and detailed results***
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stolen from violetsrblack

Fri, 06 Jun 2003 06:08:43 GMT

So accurate it's creepy.

Your Brain Usage Profile

Auditory : 50%
Visual : 50%
Left : 36%
Right : 63%

niki, you are moderately right-hemisphere dominant and have even preferences between auditory and visual processing, traits that might make people perceive you as "slightly off balance."

You are most likely to be slightly disorganized, a "dreamer" and a person who focuses more on the end result than the immediate task at hand. You are creative and spontaneous if somewhat lacking in direction and focus. You are a learner who is generally patient and a person for whom time is an ally, not an enemy.

You are more passionate than most people with regard to life and learning and recognize your own intuitive abilities. You have sufficient goal-direction to satisfy yourself and guarantee success without being or feeling driven. You are willing to be reflective about yourself and others without getting lost in rumination.

The balance of your sensory modes allows for both learning and expressive capabilities achieved by few. You are active and "seeing" while retaining an equally strong propensity for being reflective which slows you down a little but allows for a more comprehensive perception and analysis of situations and problems. You do not spend excessive time analyzing since you mostly trust your perceptions.

In all likelihood, you have a tendency to overcommit and cannot under- stand why others get upset since you operate on a different "time table" than they do. Your organizational abilities are frequently overwhelmed by the stimulation seeking and active nature of your mind as well as by the tendency to create new categories and gloss over details, making categorization and classification almost impossible at times.

To the extent that your career path allows for creativity and abstraction as well as a bit of disorganization, you should find yourself equipped to handle any learning that is required. Your own personal adjustment to your style should come naturally although you are likely to feel frus- trated by your own limited discipline and often wonder "Why?"

hahahah

Wed, 19 Mar 2003 23:00:22 GMT

http://www.mycathatesyou.com/newlist.asp?CatName=rambo_072802

everyone go there. funniest thing ever.

haha...late night insanity...

Wed, 05 Mar 2003 05:33:14 GMT

Skull Brigade: and some christian oi band
Skull Brigade: haha
DeadDawl: they were christian??
Skull Brigade: yeah march through the streets or whatever
DeadDawl: march through the streets of jesus
DeadDawl: hahahhaha
Skull Brigade: i saw them like, last summer at the blaster the rocket man show
Skull Brigade: hahahahaha
Skull Brigade: march through the streets with jesus and his cross
DeadDawl: march through the streets of gold
DeadDawl: hahahhaha
Skull Brigade: hahaha
Skull Brigade: march through the streets in heavan
Skull Brigade: with jesus
Skull Brigade: haha
DeadDawl: hahahhahaha
DeadDawl: through the gates
Skull Brigade: hahaha
Skull Brigade: and into a blissful eternity
DeadDawl: hahah OI!!
Skull Brigade: hahahahahaha
Skull Brigade: hahahaha
Skull Brigade: OI!
Skull Brigade: haha
Skull Brigade: t
DeadDawl: hahahah OI! to the punks and OI! to jesus!
DeadDawl: hahahahha
Skull Brigade: hahahaha
Skull Brigade: oi to the punx and oi to the skinz oi to jesus! and we all win in heaven
DeadDawl: hahahhaha

blah.

Wed, 19 Feb 2003 02:13:29 GMT

Your Heart is Grey

What Color is Your Heart?
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heh heh

Tue, 11 Feb 2003 18:41:45 GMT

YOU ARE THE LOVECHILD OF COURTNEY LOVE AND JOHNNY
THE HOMICIDAL MANIAC!

Which Celebrity Lovechild Are You?
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test. will make a real update later.

Tue, 14 Jan 2003 07:48:42 GMT

Basic Fear: Of being corrupt/evil, defective
Basic Desire: To be good, to have integrity, to be balanced
Enneagram One with a Nine-Wing: "The Idealist"
Enneagram One with a Two-Wing: "The Advocate

Healthy: Conscientious with strong personal convictions: they have an intense sense of right and wrong, personal religious and moral values. Wish to be rational, reasonable, self-disciplined, mature, moderate in all things. / Extremely principled, always want to be fair, objective, and ethical: truth and justice primary values. Sense of responsibility, personal integrity, and of having a higher purpose often make them teachers and witnesses to the truth. At Their Best: Become extraordinarily wise and discerning. By accepting what is, they become transcendentally realistic, knowing the best action to take in each moment. Humane, inspiring, and hopeful: the truth will be heard.
Average: Dissatisfied with reality, they become high-minded idealists, feeling that it is up to them to improve everything: crusaders, advocates, critics. Into "causes" and explaining to others how things "ought" to be. / Afraid of making a mistake: everything must be consistent with their ideals. Become orderly and well-organized, but impersonal, puritanical, emotionally constricted, rigidly keeping their feelings and impulses in check. Often workaholics — "anal-compulsive," punctual, pedantic, and fastidious. / Highly critical both of self and others: picky, judgmental, perfectionistic. Very opinionated about everything: correcting people and badgering them to "do the right thing"—as they see it. Impatient, never satisfied with anything unless it is done according to their prescriptions. Moralizing, scolding, abrasive, and indignantly angry.

Unhealthy: Can be highly dogmatic, self-righteous, intolerant, and inflexible. Begin dealing in absolutes: they alone know "The Truth." Everyone else is wrong: very severe in judgments, while rationalizing own actions. / Become obsessive about imperfection and the wrong-doing of others, although they may fall into contradictory actions, hypocritically doing the opposite of what they preach. / Become condemnatory toward others, punitive and cruel to rid themselves of "wrong-doers." Severe depressions, nervous breakdowns, and suicide attempts are likely.

Key Motivations: Want to be right, to strive higher and improve everything, to be consistent with their ideals, to justify themselves, to be beyond criticism so as not to be condemned by anyone.

Examples: Mahatma Gandhi, Hilary Clinton, Al Gore, John Paul II, Sandra Day O'Connor, John Bradshaw, Bill Moyers, Martha Stewart, Ralph Nader, Katherine Hepburn, Harrison Ford, Vanessa Redgrave, Jane Fonda, Meryl Streep, George Harrison, Celene Dion, Joan Baez, G. B. Shaw, Noam Chomsky, Michael Dukakis, Margaret Thatcher, Rudolph Guliani, Jerry Brown, Jane Curtin, Gene Siskel, William F. Buckley, Kenneth Starr, The "Church Lady" (Saturady Night Live), and "Mr. Spock" (Star Trek).

oh yeah...

Wed, 25 Dec 2002 03:42:50 GMT

almost forgot...yesterday was fun..i worked for a while then did some xmess shopping with mark at the castleton mall and the greenwood mall. then we watched a clockwork orange...good movie even the millionth time around. snow man time now.