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|Monday, July 19th, 2004|
|Saturday, May 22nd, 2004|
| Current Mood: blah
|Tuesday, May 18th, 2004|
man am i mad. i missed the simpsons with john waters on it AGAIN. stupid sleep.( i love this songCollapse ) Current Mood: annoyed
|Thursday, April 29th, 2004|
|Friday, April 2nd, 2004|
Thank You, Dr. Hoess
These plastic faces
thoughts bouncing from
one eyeball to the other
looking out to see in.
show me show me show me—
I am the universal You.
doctors molding faces, bodies
molding underneath the
plastic souls molding underneath.
cut and paste the world
together, paint by number,
Aryan stencils and Adolph dreams
the broken ones,
broken hearts burned up in
shovel them in,
grey souls rise
to the sky.
on another note: previously, starbucks could have gotten raped. but, since there's one in my school bookstore, i decided to submit to evil and get a spiced chai tea. oh. my. god. it was sex in a cup. i now secretly drive there in black and dart through the line unseen.
|Tuesday, February 24th, 2004|
the air was glittering
round and round
swirling down a drain
like there was something
down there other than
she giggled and grabbed his
a joke, she thought.
death has to be a joke
they'd shout with moaney-groaney
voices through absent black
teeth and no tongues;
moldy muscle shards,
Our bodies die but
our souls live on
she kissed his flesh,
mixing with his
trying to cheat
|Monday, February 16th, 2004|
|funniest. thing. ever.
today = me + Bobby Trendy. yeah. i'll bask in your jealousy.
real update when i get home. Current Mood: exhausted
|Sunday, February 8th, 2004|
The Sudden Departure
Random Brutal Love Master (RBLMf)
Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call.
You are The Sudden Departure.
You've been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have
ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you're a really fantastic
girl who doesn't really know what she wants, and you've broken a few
hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the feeling
of falling in love, but once you're there, either boredom or the old
"grass is greener" syndrome sets in. The mind wanders, and with it goes
the flesh. And then the toiletries.
Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer
We know you're not the classic "love 'em and leave 'em" type, at
least not in a purely sexual sense. You have too many serious bonding
tendencies for that. But even though you're theoretically looking to
settle down, you don't settle long on one person. "Serial monogamist"
is probably something you hear a lot. "Emotionally loose" is another way
to put it. To the poor guys eating your dust and sniffing your panties,
it doesn't really make much difference. Of course, it's not really your
fault that people get hurt. You have every right to move on when you choose.
ALWAYS AVOID: The Backrubber, The Gentleman
CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail, someone just like you
Your exact opposite: The Internhttp://devel.okcupid.com/personality?type=RBLM&g=2&o=1 Current Mood: cold
|Thursday, December 4th, 2003|
a wormless chick
waiting for guts
even if it is
it fills the
|Monday, November 24th, 2003|
fuck you for making me smear my makeup Current Mood: pissed off
|Thursday, November 13th, 2003|
| YOU ARE ETHER!
Well, well... you are the mysterious Fifth Element!
The Fifth Element, Ether, is used or conjured
in many ancient religions or magics, but is not
something found on this plane. Those that have
been able to make the ascension to the Ether
are truly evolved people, possessed with
heightened senses of intelligence, perception,
and empathy that others simply don't have.
Everyday possessions aren't of much interest -
you are beyond that. You tend to gravitate to
open spaces, changing environments, and won't
saddle yourself with one style or decision.
Indeed, just one type of career isn't of
interest to you either, as your need to
constantly continue evolving and growing won't
allow you to settle down. Sadly, this need may
also impact your social life as well. You tend
to have few friends as not many people
understand you, and fewer relationships because
you simply outgrow them.
Don't be discouraged by this, though. You are truly
one of the unique, for very few people have
been able to achieve this type of
enlightenment. Be proud and use your knowledge
and experiences to teach and help others as
much as you can.
Which of the 5 Prime Elements are you?
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|Sunday, September 14th, 2003|
my knees are still boneless
after hitting the ground that day
i was in a carousel
spinning like it had
somewhere to go
it was nervously enjoyable
with shifty eyes
and half-cocked grins.
suddenly all the
old, bulbous lights
the spinning got faster
and i really wanted to
escape into a mother's
but my horse got spooked
and bucked me off.
my knees hit the
seedy carousel floor
and my brain turned static.
chaos began and ended
in a matter of thoughts.
all i could feel
was my wet face
|Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003|
a photograph, a memoir,
sitting in the secrets
of my brain.
i blow the dust off
to reveal an empty frame
he kissed my cheek
"nothing will ever be the same."
i looked into the light
and was pushed out again
its hand on my hip-
a shadow of fate,
illusion of two
rips iron stitches
pick The Scab
to make it bleed again.
|Sunday, August 24th, 2003|
out of the corner of my eye,
i'll see his shape.
he's walking into
the same stride he used
walking away from me.
hope gone stale
innocence long expired,
and into the tangles of dark
he'll never escape.
fading into the black-
i'll live my life
out of the corner
of my eye. Current Mood: indescribable
|Sunday, August 17th, 2003|
You are an Amethyst. You are quiet and tend to be
shy. You don't like attention to be pointed
towards you, yet your beauty and uniqueness
draw people to you. What Jewel Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
|Friday, August 1st, 2003|
|sex sex sex
Your Sex Sign is Aries!
You're fiery, independent, and the best anyone's ever had.
You're so hot that you drive everyone wild with sexual frustration.
You're a total star when you're on top, but you also need to be impressed in bed.
Aries, you are headstrong, spolied, fiery in temperment, and fiercely independent.
You always want to be the best anyone's ever had, and you'll spend all night convincing your lover that you are.
Don't worry - you usually are the best anyone has ever had.
When you get down, you don't leave out anything.
Sexually, you're a leader and very sure of yourself.
One of your favorite positions is being on top, where you can move freely - while letting your lover observe you orgasm.
Sex with you is always exciting.
You start with teasing, playful seduction - that always drives your lovers wild with frustration.
You always deliver though!
You love being over powered, and you respond to a strong sexual appetite with equal fervor.
The confident lover who can give you breathtaking, powerful sex will have you eating out of his or her hand.
What's *Your* Sex Sign?
More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
hmm...pretty dead on. strange. i don't feel well. gonna lay down for a bit. Current Mood: nauseated
|Friday, June 13th, 2003|
to all that could have been
i bid you farewell
i wonder what..
exit stage left
you’re no longer
the show ran its course
your acting expired
the encore was heartfucking
but you’ll never look
into those eyes again
and be met
with the same soul
but you’re not to blame
beauty turned to dust
blowing away with the
the pieces scattering
never to reunite
through the loss of perfection
he’ll never make it back
up to the tower
over crystal-clear death
to broken fairy tales
i bid farewell
no sadness, no regret
only clarity to all
that could have been.
something abstract took me back to a place i used to be, but i never really validated the feelings at the time. now they're real.
must....sleeeeeeep... Current Mood: content
|Thursday, June 12th, 2003|
ART/TEMPERANCE"the creator, the alchemist"
You achieve balance and integration through the
creative process or by working with the hands;
you have a deep love for your creative
expression which is inspired by your great
perception and emotional insights. You love
truth and beauty for their own sakes. You have
the ability to balance and blend masculine and
feminine, yin and yang, reception and
assertion. Remember that the highest art form
is that of artful relationships. ***which major arcana of the thoth tarot deck are you? short; with pictures and detailed results*** brought to you by Quizilla
|Friday, June 6th, 2003|
|stolen from violetsrblack
So accurate it's creepy.
Your Brain Usage Profile
Auditory : 50%
Visual : 50%
Left : 36%
Right : 63%
niki, you are moderately right-hemisphere dominant and have even preferences between auditory and visual processing, traits that might make people perceive you as "slightly off balance."
You are most likely to be slightly disorganized, a "dreamer" and a person who focuses more on the end result than the immediate task at hand. You are creative and spontaneous if somewhat lacking in direction and focus. You are a learner who is generally patient and a person for whom time is an ally, not an enemy.
You are more passionate than most people with regard to life and learning and recognize your own intuitive abilities. You have sufficient goal-direction to satisfy yourself and guarantee success without being or feeling driven. You are willing to be reflective about yourself and others without getting lost in rumination.
The balance of your sensory modes allows for both learning and expressive capabilities achieved by few. You are active and "seeing" while retaining an equally strong propensity for being reflective which slows you down a little but allows for a more comprehensive perception and analysis of situations and problems. You do not spend excessive time analyzing since you mostly trust your perceptions.
In all likelihood, you have a tendency to overcommit and cannot under- stand why others get upset since you operate on a different "time table" than they do. Your organizational abilities are frequently overwhelmed by the stimulation seeking and active nature of your mind as well as by the tendency to create new categories and gloss over details, making categorization and classification almost impossible at times.
To the extent that your career path allows for creativity and abstraction as well as a bit of disorganization, you should find yourself equipped to handle any learning that is required. Your own personal adjustment to your style should come naturally although you are likely to feel frus- trated by your own limited discipline and often wonder "Why?"
|Wednesday, March 19th, 2003|